Friday, August 14, 2009

week one

(new post first post!)

and this is it and we're here!
by we, i mean katerina, sarah b., cristy rose, erynn, and i. 
we're all moved into our farmhouse
which is quite a lot more like a 60's dreamhouse
with sparkles in the ceiling
and pull-out cutting boards
and big-bulbed vanities
and blue, velour armchairs.

i know that it is good to be here.
i am reminded daily in good, growing conversations
and meeting such friendly faces
and feeling the sun
(but not the heat)
and smelling the ocean
and picking oranges from the tree in the backyard.
this morning was spent dreaming really big
about all the hopes we have
for the house
for our little farm-to-be
for what a "simple little life" mightcouldmaybe look like.

i can already see a lot of change within myself.
this is a place where we are not only caring for the earth,
but also for each other
and our neighbors
and ohsomuch for ourselves.
like centering prayer on tuesday nights!
and having spanish and salsa saturdays 
(salsa for the eating and salsa for the dancing)
and liturgical worship sunday evenings
and running/walking together
and yoga(!)
and cooking healthyhealthy local
and sharing really honestly about ourselves
(which is a lot scarier than i had imagined
because we're still kind of strange and new to one another
and even to ourselves)
and advocating for our friends the farm workers.
it's a whole lot.
and i can't deny the fact that i've been really overwhelmed
and felt lost
and lonely.
but we keep talking about reflection
and moving from loneliness to solitude
(and i'm thinking about how that is a choice)
and that feels so incredibly hopeful.

so here i/we are
in oxnard, right on the border of camarillo
a mile from the navy base
on the coast
on the farm
with the avocado trees in the front.

come! or don't!
i love you (and me?) no matter what!
there are reasons for you to be where you are
and for me to be here.
we'll share prayers and/or thoughts often.

oh and i'll be seeing you
and writing again real soon.

all five of us can be read additionally at:

lovelove.

2 comments:

  1. known her forever CaseyLynn
    always seemed adult like, always a friend.
    my first conversations,coming home in the car
    it was deep, it was reflective, though we did not drive too far...
    it was amazing, it was uncanny, the fun and rich jive,
    because I was in my thirties, and she was only five....

    "I am LAR's King of the Vikings!"
    It's Helga, she would wail back across the fiord...I mean Ford.

    Case, we are all excited for you and with you and to know what incredible growth you are now in...what a season...way to go to you and to all! Lars

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  2. Casey, this is great. I'm so excited for you. I can't wait to come visit when I get back from Senegal.

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